Before meeting "D'One" or Mr. D'Town, I was always on-the-go; I could not stay put and always had plans; never stayed home. Barely. I got a regular day shift schedule with a fun-filled (and sometimes stressful) workplace that had its own twists and turns. Adding a crazy, fun team and manager to work with! If I am not out and about (or stuck in traffic), I work out almost religiously every day. I used to run 5K around the neighborhood for about 3 times a week then shifted to Insanity Workout. I also gradually gave up rice and"regular" food. I took advantage of the time when my wisdom tooth was extracted and took up juicing and blending raw veggies/fruits for nourishment. I was at the prime of my life just before turning "the BIG 3-0".
I met Mr. D'Town through common close friends and in a flash, we were together and Baby G just magically popped into my bun. Haha! Getting pregnant got me thrown off my daily routine of workouts and diet. I will delve into my pregnancy and birthing stories on another post. :)
Fast forward to the time when Baby G is out. Originally, the plan was to go back to work and continue breastfeeding him until his first year. Eventually, we wanted me to get a job closer to home to avoid the traffic jam. Then, my breastfeeding and yaya-hunting woes began and staying home for Baby G was the most optimal choice for him.
Staying home was not easy, adding my "motherly" skills are rough, it was a juggling act for me (Irony: I don't know how to actually juggle). It took a toll on who I was and it was a painful personal process. It felt like I was shunned or imprisoned and never to return to the world. For someone, who is used to going out all the time or travelling, it was HELL. With literally no one to talk to, I felt so alone at home, most of the time. Social Media just depressed me more when I am missing out of life... my OLD life.
But, you know, what? It is a blessing in disguise. Mr. D'Town and I walked on, hands locked among the shaky circumstances every new parent goes through. I've rekindled my bond with my family, young and old. I also discovered the people who truly matter - who were there to comfort you, celebrate with you, check up on you as you embark on a new phase in your life, despite my newfound simple, home life.
I guess, back then, I was living on a fast track of Singlehood where everything should be shiny, new, trendy. As I started making homecooked meals, cleaning and arranging our little home, and attending to Baby G's needs, this is the shiny, new ME. It may not be trendy, but it lasts a lifetime.
Slowing down and staying home may be a 360 change for me but, as they say in life, what matters is not about the things you have but what you gave up. It is the sacrifices we make for our loved ones that truly mean the world to them (once they've realized it) and to you. It was a chance for me to reflect and re-align what future I want to paint with Mr.D'Town for Baby G.
More SAHM adventures coming up and how I managed to stay sane.
10 months strong!
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